Boy, has life changed!

Prior to the arrival of this little guy, little could have prepared me for all the emotions that I would go through!  I can't believe it!  Aylen is sooo precious!  And he definitely rules this house! 

If you have talked to me or seen my posts on facebook you will see my crying posts.  I heard about the crying stuff-but whoah was not really prepared.  Crying at the drop of a hat, crying over good stuff, crying over bad stuff.  It started on Day 4 (which I totally remember at my midwifes group & Day 4 was the doozy).  I usually would cry once per day and I'm happy to say that I think I'm almost over it!  But lord, add no sleep + crying once a day+ being a therapist and all the sudden I'm diagnosing myself with Postpartum Depression.  A very real diagnosis, but I think I don't need to diagnosis myself...yet:)

The feeling of being a mom is quite overwhelming in both good and bad ways!...It is amazing-and sometimes surreal to realize that this little precious boy was in my tummy for 9 months.  It just takes so long to sink in.  He is so cute and has a bit of both Russ & I.  Being a mom is a lot of pressure.  The fact that AYLEN counts on us completely for his mere survival is intense.  However; as a friend of mine put it-Megan's he was in your tummy for 9 months.  You've been doing this already.  And, that couldn't be more true.  I feel blessed to have so many great family and friends who have children, and allow me to text and call them with MANY questions. 

I feel like I'm just babbling about things...but that may be due to my 5 total hours of sleep last night:)  Our little Aylen has decided that sometime between 11a-1a he will see how loud he can yell.  Of course, he is always hungry when he does this but because he testing his lungs will not latch properly.  As soon as I can trick him long enough, he is latched and then happy!  But trying to survive that 10 minutes-1 hour of intense yelling is rough.  So I don't quite know what this is...I'm on the hunt to find others that went through similar things so that we can feel NORMAL:)

I do have to say that we went to Milkworks (this amazing lactation consulting place) yesterday and found out that our lil Man weighs in at 8lbs 4 oz! WHOO-HOOO- he is more than his birth weight.  This helped put me at ease because I knew that we were doing something right:)

What else......Grandma Deller leaves next Thursday, which will be a sad day in this household.  She has been sooo helpful--cooking, cleaning, laundry, holding & changing Aylen, providing support in the middle of the night and many other things.  Russ will go back to work for a couple days next week.  That will also be sad....  I have the feeling that August 16th (my estimated return to work date) will be coming up toooo soon!  I have lots of playdates with fellow friends that need to be scheduled, walks to take, cuddles to do, books to read, etc.

OH and lastly! WE bought a car--a 2003 4Runner.  Russ calls this my PUSH present.  I would have to say BEST.PUSH.PRESENT.EVER.  Well Aylen, was my best PRESENT.  But the 4Runner isn't bad:)

Ok-goodness....this has been my journal.  I hope you enjoy!
-momma.