Last put to sleep nurse tonight...

I just finished my last before bed nurse with Ryker and I can't decide if I want to cry or be super happy and free... I mostly want to cry. Crazy how quick time goes...all the old people are onto something when they tell you to enjoy your little kids because time flies. As tired as I am in the middle of the night when I get up to soothe Ryker, or as frustrated as I get with Aylen for not going to sleep on his own. I got to remember that in the grand scheme of things this time goes fast. It already has...before I know it ill be hanging out on the porch of our cabin reminiscing with Russ about those "crazy selfless times" rocking AJ's baby while he and his partner rock climb. Guh. I can't believe I'm almost done nursing.... I can't believe Ryker is almost 1. I just can't.

Love,
A mixed emotions Momma