You turned one almost 2 weeks ago and I'm finally writing your blog post. Oh little man what a whirlwind it has been. I'm dealing with some Momma guilt-how about I just get it all out. Sorry lil man that we didn't celebrate your birthday on your birthday, sorry that your cake was not a cake, sorry that I didn't blog until now, and I'm letting it go. right. NOW.See Rykee, on your birthday you were experiencing Day 2 of the Plague. You were oh so fevery, and all you wanted was me. You just wanted to cuddle and sleep on my chest. It reminded me of the first few months of your birth. Rarely do I get to experience you just being still. Your Grandpa was here to help take care of the family while you boys recovered from the sickness, thank goodness. When I made the comment to you, "Sorry Ryke we aren't celebrating like we should be.." Your Grandpa reminded me that I was doing exactly what you wanted and needed me to do for you on your birthday. You just needed your Momma. I suppose he was right.
The next weekend our friends came down to help us celebrate. I decided to make a cake and some cupcakes. After pouring all of the cupcakes i realized I'd forgetten the eggs. Yea. BIG FAIL. But I still had that darn cake for you. I added the egg, and baked that thing up! And it turned out. It was going to be awesome. UNTIL, the dogs worked in tandem to hit it off the counter, onto the floor, and directly into their mouths. We had brownies instead. You love brownies...and I'm pretty sure you survived eating those:) It wasn't exactly the big birthday celebration that I had envisioned and I had to fight these feelings of ....oh noooo is this what happens with #2 and/or when a birthday is this close to Christmas. But it was the Plague. I believe that. I also believe that I'm more realistic with what you want right now. You want to hangout with your family. You could care less about the huge party, or the cake, or the presents. You want us. 
I can't believe it has been ONE WHOLE year since I was CONVINCING you to come make your appearance already. You have been such a light in our life. You have this contagious smile that infects everyone around you. It's true...every daycare person, random people in a store, your family...you single-handedly make days better with that smile. You have the beat, and it doesn't matter where it comes from you will dance to it. Whether it is a commercial, the radio, my attempts at beat-boxing, the phone, radio, the pump, you name it. You still never cease to amaze us with your sleeping abilities. I mean seriously, the crib used to be for holding laundry and now it actually has a sleeping guy in it. Who would have thought?
You recently began hugging me when I pick you up. Dad has informed me that I'm the only one that gets these special hugs. I know that it's only temporary. You're a special guy that will probably be hugging everyone in no time. But for right now I feel so awesome to have that between you and me. 
It's so true about what they say when you have another child...your heart doesn't split, it most definitely swells twice as much. It has been the coolest thing to watch you and your brother begin to play more. I keep hearing the road will be tough for you two...fighting, hitting, not sharing, but I just hope that you two can be each others' best friends some day. Seeing you together, playing-chasing-working with your tools, makes me know that no matter how tough it gets you boys were TWO of the best things that ever happen to me.
Love you so much Ryker Lee. AND next year-you're going to get a rad cake. With eggs in it.
Momma
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