Ugh.

Well we have been up since 1230/1 this morning. Every since we went on our trip to Nebraska for Thanksgiving the kids (with exception of AJ) and their sleep routines have been off.  Ryk is constantly coming in around midnight, wanting to cuddle. Dempsey has required attention around 1am. We almost were back to normal and then we traveled for Christmas. Russell and I were basically just doing whatever to get kids sleeping again when we returned. The compromise that we made was that he would go in and cuddle with Dempsey and usually fall asleep. Ryk could come in our room only if he slept on the couch.  It's interesting how you can tolerate that for awhile, but then it starts to be unbearable. You just want a full nights sleep. I believe we have had 1 night of 8 hour sleep in several Lonnggggg months.  Anyways, I'm not really looking for any type of sympathy. Rather, I want documentation that our nights are hellish right now.  It's so tiring and frustrating and sometimes I feel like it's self-imposed but then who really freakin knows.  These little people crave touch and who can blame them. But I crave some alone time.  Two dates are days away from our reach and I'm ever so thankful for them.  My patience has been low lately. I'm calling on the tribe for a pick-me-up=some space between us all.  Anywho....here we are @ 323am. Awake since 1230a, and sitting in chair in Dempsey's room to placate her. She seems determined tonight to not really go to sleep. So cheers to coffee! Tomorrow night I need sleep or it won't be pretty.

Love,

A tired momma