guess whose back...

hi. oh yes. here i am.  yup, that cheery positive girl.  PHEW.  I've been gone for awhile...basically since before maternity leave ended.  I found out that my job was potentially discontinuing... the job that I loved.  It was doing amazing, quality work in a very protected situation.  AND by protected I mean that I was able to come home and not be on on call, and have my weekends-something that I cherished more than ever with these three little ones.  ANYWAYS how this job stuff rolled out was just crazy, lots of waiting, lots of unknowns, lots of rumors, lots of speculation, lots of sadness, and anger, and hope, and vicarious trauma of my colleagues and their situations.  It just wasn't pretty-or fun.  Russ saw firsthand and Della, and people who visited, and my friends.

at times I would come home to my family, and was a shell of myself.  it's amazing how much of my life is tied up in my job.  Pretty crazy... but 8 hours a day/40 hours a week/that's a lot of time.  and my job means alot to me.  and i really really value having a job.  especially one that is as important as mine.

So anyhoo-I have chosen my fate.  AND I will reside in a school still-not my schools-but schools that will surely become mine soon.  I am excited for the new relationships, I am sad to leave all these amazing relationships behind.  EACH goodbye I do completely stinks.  It sucks so bad.  But it's also been a time to reflect on how much I have been able to be a part of these kids' lives.  AND in my colleagues' lives too.  I have, no doubt, felt so much love.

So I am looking forward to finishing out the last 4 days of school, and the last 3 weeks of my current job.  I will tidy it all up, and finish everything with love.  AND then let it Go...and open my eyes up to summer time.  We have a move to do-to a whole new EXCITING house.  We have vacations to go on.  Friends and family to see.

so here I am.  back again.  Ready to be me.  And accept change, and appreciate new opportunities.

pooffffff

megan