a human can be developed in just 40 weeks is mind blowing.

From the words of my Auntie Lisa....

This is helpful to give me perspective right now.  I remember back in the day (aka 3-4 months ago) and I had told myself, "Megan- you are going to be cool, calm & collected in the end.  You will be perfectly fine if this baby needs an extra week or two to cook.  Whatever the baby needs, no problem".  

Now that the time is here, or should I say almost here...I feel I am going against my words.  I am searching for some inner peace to be okay with what Little Rock needs.  Maybe I find myself thinking about D-day (delivery day) too much because I'm feeling huge, tired most of the time, done with trying to get out of bed, peeing (or at least feeling like peeing) all the time, or the mere fact that there have been some amazing Preggo friends of mine that have all given birth within the last week.  I'm not jealous at all, I'm just so happy for them! I can't wait until it's my turn.  Patience is key.  But I also think this is where the surrender portion that has been talked about it our classes comes into play.

I must surrender to this amazing process.  I can't make things happen before they are "supposed" to happen.  I must trust that Little Rock knows when it is time, and that my body knows when to transform itself from creating to delivering.  I told Russell last night that I may need to have extra support right now.  Whether that is physical support of putting on my shoes, pants, etc or the emotional support of "Yes, hon.  You are beautiful.  I love that belly".  

In my opinion, this is the start of Go-Time for fathers.  This is when you get to really step up to the plate.  I think about not having Russell around, and I have gained amazing respect for single-moms.  This pregnancy thing is hard work.  I can't imagine delivery....

Alright-that about sums up my thoughts for the day.  Take care all, and I'll work on my Peace.

-The Mom